Losing a friend

So today I ended a friendship with someone who I used to consider one of my two best friends...and I'm feel quite awful right now. She is a freshman in college and didn't make any effort to keep in touch with me, even though she promised over winter break (when we sat down and talked about how unfair it was) she would. But she didn't keep her promise, and I waited for her to. I found out yesterday that she'd gotten a tattoo similar to my own, and the fact that she did something that should have made her think of me and it apparently didn't really hurt me. It was like I didn't even cross her mind anymore. Anyways, after many text messages she semi-bluntly told me that she didn't care about me enough to put the effort into it. She wasn't apologetic at all! She got angry at me for something that was her fault, and she was far meaner than I'd ever thought possible of her. I spent the better part of the morning sobbing on the couch with my mother consoling me, and while work was a good distraction, I'm now feeling sadder and sicker than ever.

How do you stop thinking about someone when you end a friendship? How do you go and delete everything on your computer that links you to her? Do you take the pictures out of the frames and burn them? I feel like she's still close to me and I feel like there's a whole that she created with her not caring. Until I figure out how to get over it and forget her, I'm afraid that gloom with overtake me. All I really feel like doing is crying.

I'm a bad blogger : (

Bad Cap'n Vee. BAD! *slaps own wrist*. I really want to be good at this, but I guess it takes more than just inspiration and a love of fashion. It takes motivation. I have been filling my need for fashion advice with working on the look book I'm making for the boutique I work at. Filling the pages with beautiful new trends and advice on how to wear them is my idea of fun.

Anyways, there are a few peices I've been drooling over lately.

First off, Prada's Spring '08 collection is one of my favorite of all time. It hits me right on my geeky, fantasy loving spot.
Gorgeous, right? The organza bubble skirts and high waisted blouses are so delicate and otherwordly. And who can forget those shoes!
I think they look like flowery chess peices, and I can't help but wonder if their chunky-ness makes the shoe more comfy (always an added bonus).

Lastly, and since I won a pair on Ebay, more importantly, Marc by Marc Jacobs' mouse flats. They are cute beyond words and just whimsical and excentric enough to be wearable but still different from what anyone else in the room has on.

I can't wait for them to arrive. My feet are yearning for a little charm.

Ok all, hopefully I be doing better in the future. I have another acting job this weekend, which I'm really looking forward to. Wish me luck!

Vee

In High Regard...

A day after and I'm still in shock over the news of Heath Ledger's passing. There was a time when I adored him...had pictures of him on my walls. As I got older I began to see him in a different light. He work meant more to me, and the way he guarded his private life and cared nothing for the 'celebrity' status he was given said so much about him as a person.

One of my favorite movies of all time is Ned Kelly, a film about an Australian outlaw that was only out in limited release in the US, though HBO has picked it up and plays it occassionally. It is a wonderful movie about courage, and standing up for what is right, and I urge you all to watch it for all the performances given in it. Of course "Brokeback Mountain" will remain the highlight of his (far too brief) career. He touched on something truly resonant in the film, and whether you are homosexual or not, everyone can appreciate dealing with hardships and the emotional connection Heath had with his character.

I find it especially hard to deal with this all due the fact that I myself am an actor, not yet as talented as dear Mr. Ledger was, but struggling to make it. All actors, no matter how handsome or great have an impact on me, and when one who had a place in my heart dies so young and so tragically it's hard to deal with. We are all missing out on the brilliant work that surely was to come.

My heart goes out to his family, and it's unbearable to think of his little 2 year old daughter, Matilda, losing her father so early. Hopefully, years down the line, she'll watch the movies he's made, and feel like he's sitting right beside her...which in a way, he will be.

Retro Swimsuits

So January is cold. We all know this. Summer can seem months away when you're in the dead of winter (except for those of you who live in California or Florida). But why not put a little warmth into your day and get you excited for summer NOW! Victoria's Secret has some amazing retro swimsuits right now, and while I have no interest in going swimsuit shopping and having to see my pale skin in a bikini, they're fun to look at!

My favorite is the black one on the far right, although the deep neck is maybe not too approriate for getting active in the waves, you can certainly look hot laying out on the beach. With all the itsy-bitsy teeny weeny bikini's out there today, it's nice have some cute and fun options that are a little different than everything else out there.

So...put on some shades, parade around your house in flip-flops and listen to the Beach Boys...summer will be here before we know it!

MUAH!

Vee

New Years Resolutions

Hello all! It's been another horrid long time since I last posted, and hence...*drum roll* one of my new years resolutions is to blog more frequently! I really want to get to the point when I post everyday, but for now I'm just working on more than once a week.

And also, on that note, happy new year! I feel like 2008 is gonna be SO exciting. Happening in 2008 will be:
*my first time voting!
*my 21st birthday!
*hopefully moving to NYC!

And also, the great possibility that our new president will be A. a woman, or B. an African-American. Such great changes can occur this year...let's hope for the better!

And now, I leave you with a recent obsession of mine: enamel jewelry. Banana Republic has a bunch of pretty options (below), but at almost $40 they're a bit out of my price range for a bracelet.

Aren't they adorable! AAAAAANNNNNDDD I went to Target today and found that they have enamel bracelets too! At $13.99 they are much more affordable, and I bought for myself a pretty sailor themed 3-pack and a coral-y looking one. Unfortunately they don't seem to be up on the Target website, but keep an eye out in the stores for them, they just migh turn up!

Out for now,

Vee

Quitting: Is it ever OK?

Ok, so I decided to do a post about something that I've been dealing with recently. I take an acting class at a theater in the city once a week, and we get assigned scenes and scene partners by the teacher to work on extensively until Jan. 14th when we present them. I was given the role of Frankie in "Frankie and Johnny in the Clair de Lune". I also was assigned a scene partner, who'll I'll call...Gary. Now I'm guessing most of you aren't familiar with the play (I wasn't), but it's about two middle aged people who work in a diner, and after sleeping together on the first date, experience very different results than what they expected to. Johnny is forwardly in love with Frankie, and is in no way ashamed to tell her everything that pops into his head. Frankie is very different. She's been abused in past relationships, and while she has no problems with sexual intimacy, she pulls away hard from Johnny praise and adoration.
Here's where the problems come in: my partner creeps me out, and in class (which is supposed to teach us how to make scenes more realistic), we had to do several exercises that made me EXTREMELY uncomfortable. So do I listen to how I feel and leave the class, knowing that while I was unhappy in the class, I basically quit, and that in my career I should be able to push through and challenge myself.
I ended up talking to my teacher, and we did several things to help me be more at ease in the scene. I'll still never be 100% happy with it, but I feel like I have to stick it out and make the absolute best of it. So while I know that if I did leave, no one would have thought me any less, I would have always looked back and maybe regretted it.

That's all for now, I'll post tomorrow after the National Geographic shoot to tell you all the dish! MUAH

eLuxury Wish List & first professional acting job!

Ok, so it's been more than a month since I posted, and considering that this is only my SECOND post that's pretty pathetic. I will TRY to get better, but I'm jsut figuring our what exactly I want to talk about here. I may turn towards talking about fashion more, especially since I work in a consignment boutique and therefore deal with it every day. I'm starting out by showing my favorite things from eLuxury.com, which is like my dream site (not that I can really afford anything at the moment!)

First is the Metallic Picadilly Platform by KORS Michael Kors. They are so fabby I can hardly stand it. And because of the platform they might actually be comfortable, which is kinda miraculous.

The second is Marc by Marc Jacobs ballet flat. They're so bright and fun I might really feel like doing a bit of ballet if I ever got my hands on them.

Then there's the Silhouette Flower dress:

and the Runway Kaleigh dress (right):

both also Marc by Marc Jacobs (he's just so amazing!) They are both so airy and beautiful, and put a different spin on the normal party dress.

The big news to report is that this weekend I have my first real professional acting job! It's just a non-speaking part, a little bigger than an extra, but it's paying, and I can get SAG credits for it! I'm going to be a Navy Wife on a National Geographic program, and I am so excited I can hardly stand it! I'm taking my camera with me, and I plan on taking tons of photos to document the whole process. Till then, keep living it up.